As I read more about managing my fibromyalgia and trying to lose weight they have the same first step: keep a journal! So, while I am trying to get into shape and manage my fibromyalgia symptoms I figure keeping one comprehensive journal is the way to go. I am 29 years old and feel like so much of my body is out of my control. I am always cloudy headed and have been entirely dependent on pain medication of one form or another to lead a minimal life of normalcy. As is often the case, the factors that I am overcoming are all connected, creating complex hurdles for me to overcome. In my case, the main issues I have are:
1. Depression
2. Fibromyalgia.
3. TMJ
4. Being overweight.
They are phycially and mentally interactive in my life and it is hard for me to sort through them so that I can start to improve at least one aspect of my life. So, I have started this blog not only as a journal of my symptoms, my successes, my failures, and so on, but as an accountability for my life. Tomorrow I will take my "before" pictures and post them. It is hard for me to look at myself this way. I have struggled with a sadness and self-hatred that runs very deep for me. My weight has crept up slowly as my anti-depressant has gone higher and higher. The trade off is that my mood is better and much more stable with the anti-depressant. I was so down for a while that I didn't even want to get up and use the bathroom, so an anti-depressent was a necessary tool to get me back on track. I truly believe that if I can start eating right and working out my symptoms of fibromyalgia and depression will back off a little or a lot. So, this blog shall document my success, failure or whatever this project may bring. . .
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